Living in the right now
For as long as I can remember Proverbs 3:5-6 have been my life verses. I've understood the meaning, but I don't really know if I really got it until this morning. I have trust issues, just like lots of other people. Trusting people is terribly difficult for me because of what I've experienced, and because I cannot see or trust the Lord, trusting him has been even harder. I'm what you would call too nice, I forgive everything always, no matter how big of a fool you've made out of me. Today I woke up and was cleaning out my Bible and I came across these verses, and it was like the cartoon light bulb went off above my head.
Because I haven't been able to bring myself to trust a lot of people on this Earth, I try to figure everything out on my own, but that's not right. I believe we're not meant to know everything, but that's exactly what I've been trying to do. I try to plan out all the important things in my life so I don't have to trust anyone and I can take care of myself. It's just a bad attitude to have about life. God tells us plainer than anything that he is there for us and that we don't have to get it all as long as we get that we can rely on him. It took me about 24 years to figure that out. But the knowledge is truly a freedom I've been searching for.
I think a lot of people don't know how to trust God because he's not something we can touch or look at for reassurance. If we believe He's there it should be enough to appease all other doubts we might have, but often it is not and that's ok. I've had problems with this for my entire life and I don't expect an instant change today, but I do expect to start trying to change things.
For all you non trusting people out there like me, if we ever want to trust anyone fully, we should start with God.
Because I haven't been able to bring myself to trust a lot of people on this Earth, I try to figure everything out on my own, but that's not right. I believe we're not meant to know everything, but that's exactly what I've been trying to do. I try to plan out all the important things in my life so I don't have to trust anyone and I can take care of myself. It's just a bad attitude to have about life. God tells us plainer than anything that he is there for us and that we don't have to get it all as long as we get that we can rely on him. It took me about 24 years to figure that out. But the knowledge is truly a freedom I've been searching for.
I think a lot of people don't know how to trust God because he's not something we can touch or look at for reassurance. If we believe He's there it should be enough to appease all other doubts we might have, but often it is not and that's ok. I've had problems with this for my entire life and I don't expect an instant change today, but I do expect to start trying to change things.
For all you non trusting people out there like me, if we ever want to trust anyone fully, we should start with God.
