I lead a wonderful small group through Lifechurch on Thursday Nights called "Girls Night In". One of the challenges we had this week was focused on forgiving in one area you were having a hard time forgiving - God, others or yourself. I never thought I would be so quickly challenged in this challenge.

I came to work at my normal time after dropping my daughter off at school. I had a dreadful feeling in my heart but wasn't sure what it was for. I figured it was just God trying to deal with the hidden issues of my heart. So I just laid it aside and submitted my heart to the Lord.

I came in, started on my work right away to get updated on my work and get everything done for the week, including the spreadsheet and the new update sheet my boss had asked me to do. I went to lunch late hoping to get caught up on the last of my files for the end of the day.

Upon my return, I was asked into my employers office by my boss and was completely shocked to find out that I was being let go affective immediately because I did not seem "happy" in my position. He even brought another manager in to witness.

I told him that I wasn't "not happy" but I was struggling in my position but I was just getting the hang of the position. And I kindly admitted that this position was turning into something other than he had propositioned in the beginning.

I nervously shook his hand, handed him my keys and tried to grab as much stuff out of my desk as possible - all the while him watching me fumble with thing as he didn't even give me a box to clear out my desk with. Needless to say I left quite a few things.

Then it hit me as I got into the car. I started bawling. I really tried hard with that job and KNEW I wasn't given a fair chance and was lead to believe one thing that came about to another.

But either way I needed to come to my Fathers feet as it hit the pain left there by other managers who had previously hurt me. And I kept hearing, 70 times 7, 70 times 7. I need to keep putting that pain at the feet of Jesus and allow His blood to cover the sin that caused the pain, and the sin that pain can cause me to walk in.

Lord, I forgive them for the know not what they did - they did not know how they hurt me and they don't know You! Lord bless them beyond all knowing.

Lord I patiently wait for You to open the next door. This hands are ready to work however You want them to work. Please help me put them to work for Your glory Lord!

Thank you for the hard lessons Lord. Thank you!

Matthew 6:15