Your problem is pride. This is true for the religious and non-religious alike. You won't get off your high horse and admit it, but it's still pride. People may have an alternate explanation, but it's still pride. Pride won't let you admit it. Pride won't let you see it. If you do see it, it's only because of a higher power. Pride is the sole reason for hopelessness. It's the beginning of sin, and the end of your life.