Acts 26:14 ASV

Why do I take a joy in the fact that my sins are becoming "Grown-up" sins? I believe the devil is tricking me to think that "putting off childish things" means that I should move on to adult sin.

My heart is so hurt right now, and I don't know who to lash out at. Soon there will be no one but strangers left. I will become like Ebeneezer Scrooge yelling at passers-by.

Lord please help me to be meek and lowly of heart, when it is appropriate.