Dead man walking
This whole life is meant to be lived as a dead person. Dead to my self. Dead to my pride. Dead to my desires. Dead to my will. This is being a true follower. Makes sense. It's not worth it to live for me, make myself happy and then at the end, spend eternity in hell. I want to follow. With no reservations. In moments where my will rises up, I want to squash it. Sure, Jesus has asked me to live differently. And sure, that may bring rejection, loss of reputation. But I don't want to be ashamed of anything about Jesus or what He has called me to do- how different He has called me to live. I want to be a genuine follower of Christ.
