Matthew 26:39
This floors me. In one short little prayer, I both see myself and the person that I should be. The first part I think we can all relate to. I know that i've said those exact words before - God, 'if it is possible..' And it just breaks my heart because I can practically hear Jesus begging God out of his weakness, out of His sorrow and fear. It just speaks volumes to how huge what He did for us is. The fact that He was so 'overwhelmed with sorrow' (v38) over this, and yet He still did it. Because, as the next part of his prayer goes, 'Not as I will, but as you will.' Jesus is talking about something as huge as being crucified, and it's obviously terrifying Him, yet He's willing to do it because it's God's will. That's the attitude we all need to have. No matter how huge the task is that God sets out in front of us, we need to set aside our own fears and be willing to do God's will. Yes, we are still going to be scared, we're still going to doubt and question God and beg Him to take burdens from us, but ultimately, we need to surrender our own wills to His, just like Jesus. I just can't say enough about this verse. So many times I read Scripture and all I want is God to comfort me - yet, when I read this all I want to do is comfort Him! It just shows so much about how human Jesus really was, and how much God understands our pain, and our weaknesses, and He understands how hard it can be to surrender everything to Him. This really helps me to understand just how mind-blowingly huge what He did for me is.
