The Gift God has Given


As I sit here and write this entry, I look out my apartment window. I can see the river, other buildings, and trees upon trees. Birds fly by singing their characteristic songs, and the wind flows, making the trees shiver. The sun is shining bright and the clouds delicately shade slivers of life, only giving them a moments rest from the heat.

I ask others, how can you deny there is a divine creator of all these things?

Then, I look at me and I am slowly angered because I am not as perfect as all the things God has created. He did create me, but over the years my choices have carved out a being that is not what God intended.

Because of my free will I am responsible for the creature I am today. I am a compulsive eater and I not only eat the wrong things like fast food and junk food, but I am gluttonous and selfish with food. I lie for it and I am ashamed of my behavior behind closed doors with it.

The difference between the natural gifts that God has placed here for us to enjoy and his gift that he placed here for him to enjoy (us humans) is our free will. We can choose to ignore the natural, remember the past, make judgment, measure, and make choices. Nature has a pattern that God has set and thus follows that pattern regardless of what is going on.

My purpose, I think, for reading this scripture is to ask God to forgive me for taking his great creations for granted and take care of them as he instructed me to. This includes nature and myself.

I am asking that the Lord forgive me for sinning with food and to use it as he has intended. Lord, give me strength and discipline to break these bad habits and show that the dearest thing you have created, which is me, is still as beautiful as the natural gifts you have blessed me with.


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