Did Jesus have to threaten this man with worse things to get him to really accept his healing? to keep his healing? It's hard for me to imagine being invalid for that long and still believing it was the worst thing that could've happened. Wouldn't he have had to figure out some other way of viewing his life to be able to wake up every day and come to the pool and hope for help to get in? Had he just slipped back into that mindset?
Why is it never enough for us to be healed or see healing for us to fully follow God? Why do we always want more? I've completely discounted the work of God by justifying all kinds of things as coincidence, or not enough to change someone's heart, or not enough to convince me I'd be ok following His will for my life bc it seems so crazy...
My heart is so guarded. I miss what it felt like to trust Him. I miss what it felt like to look for Him everywhere, and find Him everywhere! God grant me the strength to give up again.
Created about 1 year ago