then its back to it...i start to feel lost and alone i start to question god why dont u answer my prayers. usually about this time is when God has fed up like a parent who has told their child over and over and over sit down for a minute i want to talk to you sit down sit still... this is the time that God actually Puts me on my butt and FORCES me to be still. I am in one of those spots now.. medical issues literally

have me bed bound for a while. its now that i am still uand reading his word taking time in prayer and actually taking time to listen that i don't feel lost anymore.... a good friend of mine said if u cant take time out of your day to be still God will Make u be still. shes right and im extra stubborn cause this is the 3rd time god has knocked me flat on my butt- i rejoice in that thou because those god loves he disciplines