Why God Why?
"In spite of everything, Job did not sin or accuse God of doing wrong."
I am not like Job, in the past, I felt that everything bad that happened in my life was a punishment from God. I blamed God for the actions of others, I ran away from God feeling like I was being punished, and spent many years angry and blaming him for everything. I have no defense, I had a picture of my heavenly father that was so distorted and looking back, I am ashamed that the first things our of my mouth was not praise, but blame. No matter how bad I have had it, it cannot compare with what happened to Job - and yet this is just the start. God is not to blame for anything that happened to me. I know this now, yet I still struggle with the why of it all. He didn't cause it to happen, but he did allow it. Reading Job, we see that God allowed the devil to destroy everything that he though Job held dear in an effort to prove to God, that it was the blessings and protection that God provided that made Job love and worship him. Job did question his circumstances and he did question the why of it all, but he stood fast in his faith. God allows things in our life to test our faith and it's through these very tests, that we become stronger.
I still question and I still cry, but I am learning that God has a reason. I may not understand, but I can either trust him or curse him. Having everything may seem wonderful especially during the trials but having everything without God is not worth it. I don't want to lose things, I don't want the suffering, I don't want the pain, but I do want God. I may never know why, but I am learning more and more of the Who and in the end that is the most important.
Created 10 months ago
