Sunday June 26th
Word Became Flesh.
Woke up at 4:15 this morning and couldnt sleep. HAd an overwhelming sense that I needed to pray for my Dad. After praying and thinking much about his life, I became aware that with him in his last days (years if God chooses) that I was being called to draw nearer to God himself.
This morning was different. Usually I just beat myself up because I dont feel very spiritual and my love for the scriptures is eclipsed by the cares and entertainment this world has to offer. Today was different. I dont feel guilt and shame because the zeal and steadfastness my Dad exudes is not all that present in my life. Rather I felt honored that God was calling me to enter into relationship with Him as he has with my Earthly Father. Its as though he was saying to me "I enjoy my relationship with your Dad, and I desire for you to know me as he did." There are several different ways I can approach this, the usual way of trying to guilt myself into some form of spiritual disciplines, or the one which I am going to choose: to allow the Lord to love me, accept me as I am, and to learn to love him as I am and allow him to change me. I dont know that I will ever be as devoted to or as passionate about the word as my dad is, but I do know that the same God that pursued my dad and placed a love for him in his heart is actively pursuing me as well. So I will honor my Earthly Father by seeking to love the scriptures with all my heart, but I will not set myself up for failure trying to measure up to his calling, I will embrace my own.
The word made flesh!!! Lord thanking you for bringing your word to life in my Dad. I pray that you will rekindle my love for you, that I may continue the work that you have done through him in me, and the others that he invested in.
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