From my journal...

...But am I doing this for me? For them? For You? Lord, all I have is your promise. Your promise is my hope. Your vision is my path. Let your promise bring life to me when I second guess myself. I might even lie to myself sometimes, but let me let go of my feelings and hold on tight to my conviction. I will not turn from what you have WRITTEN. I will wonder what I'm doing sometimes. I will feel alone a lot. But allow your SCRIPTURE to comfort me in my need of comfort. Correct in the time of correcting. Even when I don't want to listen or choose to ignore, surround me with HEART & SOUL people that will lovingly tell me what I need to hear. Nathans! Everywhere I've gone, my song is heard. Our song is heard. You know that I tried to stay quite but I can't. I am just a vessel, an instrument. But it has been your music all along. I might sound like a broken cassette player, but its what you've done...who you are...what you have planned. I want to sit but I can't just sit. You have heard my cry even at night. I wake up and get free shoes and answered prayers! Its as if your are teasing me...testing me to see if I trust you. Well, I DO! I will commit. I will move. I will do. I will live. I will obey! Whether in church or not; whether in leadership or not; whether in Dallas or Houston; I want to spend the rest of my life OBEYING YOU. Following you. Serving you. Being used by you. My hope is you. Just ME and YOU!

Created 9 months ago