Arranged in Advance
I had no idea there was a such thing as a 21-day fast. I even text my pastor about the theory even tho I knew God had already confirmed in me to start the 21 day fast. He even told me exactly what to do hour by hour. when to wake, when to pray, when to read, etc. This wasn't the first time God spoke a fast to me, but it was the first time I listened. in the past I didn't feel like doing it or felt in my heart I was only doing it because everyone else was, and that's always been a difficult place for me to operate in although I know accountability requires it somewhat.
But this time i was ready. Before God spoke the fast to me, I felt myself seeking more truth to what His plan was for my life. To achieve greater discipline overall in my life and to be more of a servant to my church and my family is whats been heavy on my mind lately. I dont know if its simply getting older that's creating the need to seek Him or other reasons, but all I know is that its there. The need is there and its not going anywhere. I can't leave this earth with having gone above and beyond to serve God's people how He wants it done from me. And that fact most of my life has been hard to accept. I'm asking God now to help me get there because honestly my flesh is stubborn and sometimes so is my heart. I know that if I arrange my heart in advance to hit the mark, then my message won't fall on a def ears when its time to ask Him for His message...I've missed the "Mark" long enough. My mother calls me "Mark" even tho she named me marquise. And no one has ever called me mark for short except her. It must mean something...END.
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