Soap Day 16
Observation - You know sometimes I really want to trust me, I really want to rely on me and to think that I know all that I need. It is comfortable that way, it is uncomfortable to trust anyone else, even Christ, with my life. I want to believe that I have all the answers. I know that the reason for that is that I will only push myself so far, I will never push myself into an area of the unknown. For me the unknown that Christ is calling me is to become less about meeting new people, throwing myself into the lives of new people, and is more about becoming more vested into those around me. I know that there is pain there and that Christ is asking me to face that and let people get to know the side of me that I don't care for anyone to know and risk facing rejection. Which for an extreme extrovert is the scariest aspect of all relationship.
Application - I will begin with the two other men and my own family to be the person that Christ created, good and bad. I will allow them to speak about what needs to change and I will do everything that I can do to earnestly seek God's wisdom as to if I need to make those changes.
Prayer - Hey God Thank you for the evening that you just blessed me with. I got to be an attempt at support for a friend. For that I say thank you. As I begin to be more real with family and a few close friends please give me wisdom in the changes that need to be made. Thank you again, talk to you soon.
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