Who am I really?
I got a lot of good information sunday and I always love when Jason teaches but one of the main things that has hit me so far in the beginning of the book of John was that he knew who he was. Most of my life I pretended to be something or someone I wasn't. I was a perfect chameleon. I could change my talk, my walk, my job, my living arrangements and anything else that would allow me to fit into whatever enviroment I was in. John knew who he was. What a break through. He didn't have to pretend to be something he wasn't. He didn't have to be considered the best. If anything he considered himself to be the least of. He didn't try to empress people and seek their approval. Wow!!! to most people this is probably not a "Big" thing but to me this was a "Big" eye opener when I accepted Christ into my life. When I started following "Jesus" I eventually realized that most of my life I was a Big lie with a lot of sub catagories. Still till this day I struggle with this on and off. The good thing about it though is that I'm aware of it and willing to continue on working on it or should i say I try to get out of the way so god can fix it. that sounds better but i am willing to do my part. I love Jesus with all of my being. Life has beat me fair and square. I've gave it enough chances too, that's for sure. where I'm at know is Rom 7:18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out.
Rom 7:19 For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing.
As long as I'm breathing I know that God is still at work in my life. I truly thank God for saving me from myself. I love all of you Alex "your brother in Christ" now and forever
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