I do what I don't want to do

So I've been reading a lot lately and I decided that I wanted to read through the Bible. Now when I say I've been reading a lot I don't mean a couple hours everyday and then I'm tired of reading, I mean devouring books in 2 days or less that are hundreds of pages, I mean at least 5 books in the last 2 weeks that are 200+ pages and not even thinking of being bored.
That changed, I started reading the Bible. I didn't get bored but I did get restless. I want to read the Bible in like...a month or 2 weeks or something like that, a month at the most. But now as I'm reading the Bible I feel earthly things call out to me, things that didn't happen when I was reading other books. Its unnerving. It seems to me that my body is fighting tooth and nail to not read this glorious book and yet my mind thirsts for it, and my spirit is insatiable.
Yesterday I decided to play video games instead of reading my Bible (I'd already read a 'lot' but I hadn't read as much as I had wanted to). God was saying to my spirit, spend time with me, I want you to know me, I want you to be close with me. And I'm furious at myself for it but my body was saying no... I felt like more of a spectator than anything else.
All of this relates for me when Paul says
"For I delight in the law of God in my inner being. But I see a different law in my membranes waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that it is in my membranes."

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