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I have been reminded of the these verses, Jeremiah 29:11 & 12, several times in the last couple of days from a few different sources. I heard it on the radio on the way to church, then Jeff Bell referenced it during his message this weekend. It's just another "oddity" along the steps I've been taking lately; some of which have caused me to look up to the sky, hands in the air, saying things like "Really, God? When will you...? Why can't I...? I should do what???"
Then I am reminded: "I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for."
Funny how doubt can riddle even the slightest details of any thought or potential plan. You know, doubting if that little nudge is nothing more than just all in my head. The future I hope for - He wants to give me the future I hope for. It's funny that He knows what I hope for and already has plans for it. I often can't even decide if I want the cheeseburger or the chicken sandwich, fries or salad, coke or water. Yet God already has something mapped out. I just have to choose to accept it. And even when I do accept it, the slightest hiccup is met with fierce doubt and feeling of distance...
... and then I read a little further: “When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I’ll listen."
So here I am, trying to learn to say: "Ok God. You're say you're listening. I get that. And I've been talking for a long time. Maybe I need to listen more. Since you know the plans - and sometimes I don't even turn out of the church parking lot in the correct direction - maybe I just need to jump and know that you'll catch me. You always do... even when I have a hard time believing that you will."
My way has never taken me anywhere that was worth continuing, so why would I doubt my Creator? Time to just keep taking steps in the right direction and let God be my guide... and JUMP!
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