Hope
This Psalm is dear to me. This Psalm contains words I couldn't even come close expressing for myself. In my darkest of moments, I found this Psalm and held it close to my heart. There is no happy ending, there are no smiles, there is no hope. This is one of the darkest moments of the Bible.
Sometimes it is unclear why these moments are allowed to manifest in our lives. Some things are brought upon ourselves and others are just affects of a sinful world and consequences of others actions. However, God allows for these moments to show his glory.
Without getting into detail of what brought me to my darkest moment, I will say that I had lost everything that I ever held onto in life. I was stripped from all securities. My plans, my dreams, all were shattered. I had never felt such emptiness in my life, and hope that I never will. Yet, through it all God was moving.
I don't believe this despair was the end of the Psalmist's story. Although there is no happy ending in this chapter, I'm sure God did not allow despair to swallow this man's life. I'm sure there was a beautiful story to his hopelessness. God brought new hope to a lonely, helpless situation.
Right before I reached what I thought was rock bottom, I was given a scripture from Isaiah 62:3-4.
3.You will also be a crown of beauty in the hand of the LORD, And a royal diadem in the hand of your God.
4.It will no longer be said to you, "Forsaken," Nor to your land will it any longer be said, "Desolate "; But you will be called, "My delight is in her," And your land, "Married "; For the LORD delights in you, And to Him your land will be married.
He has hope for me. He knew I would reach despair and total hoplessness. But he gave me hope that one day I will not be called "Forsaken" but I will be a crown of beauty in His hand. It makes my knees tremble and my lips quiver, that He has a promise for me. For me! It makes me cry even now knowing the hope he offers is not temporal, but eternal. And he promises so much for me. All loneliness, all insecurities, all hopelessness gone because of Jesus.
Lord, in my sincere brokenness before you right now, I thank you that you chose to give me a promise of hope. Just like the song you allowed me to hear at this moment "when I don't fit in and I don't feel like I belong anywhere, when I don't measure up to much in this life, I'm a treasure in the arms of Christ!!!" Thank you from the bottom of my heart I am your treasure, your crown of beauty. And many times I don't understand why, you still say you delight in me. Nothing, nothing at all can ever replace my sincerity for the hope you have for my life. I love you.
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