Day 1
So, today is Day 1 of my walk through the Bible. I've never honestly tried to do a read the Bible in a year plan- I mean, I've tried once, but I just gave up after a couple of weeks. I'm really hoping that this will be different.
Last month my youth group went to a Winter Camp at Rockbridge. It was awesome and it got my walk fired up in Him. I was searching for Him and praying pretty much all the time. It was such a great feeling to be totally devoted to Him without any doubts or questions. Last night my friend was telling me about how he read Matthew 18 and how it was convicting for him. So I decided to check it out. What got to me the most were verses 2-5:
"he called a little child and had him stand among them. And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me."
And that's what it felt like after camp. I was childlike in my faith, and it was great. I was totally trusting in God and searching Him and having a great time in Him, until I did something stupid.
Last year (10th grade) I used to go to a certain friend's house for parties. I knew it was wrong, but I still went. I only went three times, but I went nonetheless and did stupid stuff. There wasn't any alcohol or drugs, but there was ungodly music, and provocative dancing, and all that kind of stuff. If someone from my youth group walked in and saw me, they would be in total shock and wonder what in the world i was doing there. Anyway, last week that same friend had a party. And in the back of my mind I knew I shouldn't go, but someone called me and said, "Come to JJ's!", so I went. I didn't participate like I did last year, but the fact that I was there, was regretful.
The biggest reason why I regret going was because it brought me down in my walk a lot. I was going strong and then, BANG!, i was right back to the way I was before camp. I was doubting and full of worries. I was not living out a childlike faith. But after reading those verses in Matthew 18, it woke me up, and refreshed me. Now I feel much closer to where I was before and it's so great. I feel SO much better, and, I don't know, It's just great!
I'm really hoping that this reading plan will bring me closer and closer to Him each day. My biggest worry is that I'll become apathetic, or reach a dry spot and just stop. Or that I'll forget about it just stop reading altogether. I'm not entirely sure how this whole "journal" thing works, but if you're reading this, pray for me to stick through the plan the entire year. I'm really excited to see what God has in store for me!
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