Seasons Change
Paul's scenery or location changed so often, it would have been impossible to establish any form of wealth and or respect in a worldly sense. All the wealth and respect he was prescribed came directly from his position in Christ. Paul was greatly concerned for the well being of those God entrusted to His ministry. He took grave concern in guarding and protecting their hearts from anything that would steal their freedom away in Christ. Never was he concerned about his own position or status in his work but rather that his followers would mature to become followers of Christ. He understood that if he was a necessity in their lives for following Jesus, he wasn’t doing his job. Because he took this mindset, he was free to be a missionary of Christ separated from the worldly necessity to be respected and admired by others.
I’ve seen people latch on to me or others for their nourishment in Christ. That’s a horrible position for both parties. Not only am I sucked dry in that situation but the other is left hanging when the season changes. This person’s soul hangs in the gap and if Jesus doesn’t intervene their soul could be destroyed. I think this happened because I was prescribed too much power in this person’s life and acted as the savior. It wasn’t an intentional desire of mine however I haven’t fully shaken off the desire to obtain wealth and respect from in a worldly sense. In other words, I still want things that have only worldly significance so I wasn't able to disciple him effectively. This not only keeps me from the free life Jesus desires for me but it contains the potential to destroy the life of another if they decide to follow me. I hate this wretched body I’m in. Lord, I’m amazed you use me to do anything.
Heavenly father, your grace surpasses my capacity to understand. I am truly amazed that you can use someone as naturally predisposed to sin as me. I’m so grateful that you have accepted my shortcomings and covered them up that I may be seated with you in heavenly places. I am so undeserving. To even think my friend’s soul won’t be saved because of my sin is devastating to my heart. Please save him, not for me but because I know it is your will to do so. Amen!
Created about 2 years ago
