april 6th
10 For he had healed many, so that those with diseases were pushing forward to touch him
the stuff about healing has been sticking out to me, and really making me think about jake. he has a lot of health issues and he told me that his cancer is probably going to come back, he has diabetes, and his liver is expected to stop functioning in the next thirty years. looking back, i wish that i had told him i was praying for him. i did pray for him, and im going to continue to. if we ever talk maybe ill tell him. i do care for him, and this is a perfect example of a situation where i could have just stepped out even a little, except that i wasnt comfortable talking about jesus with him.
25 If a house is divided against itself, that house cannot stand.
we talked about sex a few months ago, and the series was really eye opening to me. i think that either justin or jana talked about the verse above, and things with jake were proof of how true that really is. if i couldnt so much as talk about god with this boy who claimed to love jesus, then clearly things arent right. relationships have been on my mind a lot, and im seeing more and more how much i cant be in one right now. ive grown so much. i dont want to date someone i cant see myself loving, i dont want to waste emotions and time on the boys who are only going to get me down. this time im stickin to it, no more compromising. i think i need to re do my list of must haves and preferables.
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