What sin?
The scriptures in Matt 26 and 27 details the hours leading up to the death of our Lord. The last couple of days have led me to understand in the most humble and sincere way the importance of His death on the cross.
In my life I try both in public and in solidarity to dwell on the things of God, but there are moments when I let down the guard over my heart and allow things not so Godly to take control. I pray and plead for forgiveness, yet in the back of my mind I think why would God want to forgive me this time? My entire life I've learned right from wrong and yet I still mess up; don't I make God furious at me for not learning my lesson by now?
A couple of days ago I was pouring my heart out to God over some recent matters. I was so distraught. But he stopped me in the midst of my rambling and called me by name and said, "What sin?". I paused with a puzzled look on my face. I said, "But the other day..."; He stopped me again and said, "You've already asked for forgiveness, I do not rememember what you've done. Now you need to let go."
Today, on my way to church a song came on the radio that in the chorus said "..the memory's erased, baby that's the beauty of grace." Tears started welling up in my eyes. As I entered into worship, through "Revelation Song", He came over me and brought up the conversation we had prior and the song on the radio that morning and said, "This is why I was crucified." Never had I felt His grace so intense as I did in that moment. With my hands lifted high and tears streaming down my face, I felt like a true sinner coming to the Lord for the very first time. I was humbled beyond belief just thinking of the pain, humility, loneliness and abandonment He felt as he carried the cross for my sins, for ME, so he can say hundreds of years later, "What sin?". What I did 10 years ago or what I did an hour ago, no matter how severe, they are truly remembered no more.
Knowing there is no way I could ever repay Him I did the only thing I knew to do; I continued to cry and with all my heart sang "...You are my everything, and I will adore you...".
Thank you Jesus.
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