Transparent Thought on 2 Corinthians 7.11 (MSG)
I do not know how I got to this verse during my quite time. But there it was-- the Message version asking me: Isn't it wonderful when distress goads us towards God and makes more alive, more concerned, more sensitive, more reverent, more human, more passionate, more responsible. And may heart sank. My response to God was, "No." It isn't wonderful God. Right now i don't think it is a wonderful thing. Right now in the middle of my distress, in the thick of my on going awfulness, it is not wonderful. It is the opposite of wonderful. It is awful.
Maybe at another time in my life, no, actually I know that at another time in my life I would not have "shared" that with God. I would have withheld that sentiment. But coming across this verse of scripture now and my ease at sharing my true guttural with my FATHER... made me smile. At least a little. And I feel it made God smile.
I meditated on the verse of scripture, nothing deep, just really what it said and my response to it. I even shared with my wife. And a funny thing happened. I started coming out of my distress, out of the muck and depressed feeling I had. And lo and behold-- i do feel more alive now, I do think I am more sensitive to His leading, I am definitely more reverent, I will always be more human, I believe I have more passion, and lastly, there is a bit more responsibility.
His word doesn't change. His word is true. Even when I don't FEEL it at the time. But I am so glad I serve a compassionate caring loving God who knows HOW I feel, WHY I feel. He is UNDERSTANDING. He understands me. Ahhhhhh.... that is amazing! Thank you Jesus. Thank you Father.
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