Fantasy Perpetrator
http://www.sibckorea.org/index.php/2010/09/10/fantasy-perpetrator/
Extract: As I continued down the road of sexual addiction, one of the ways that I would act out was by reading erotica. In many ways the extremely graphic nature of the stories was even more powerful than the pictures and movies that I would watch. I would play the scenes over and over in my mind. When the stories became repetitious I would simply change the actors (myself always being the “star”) or the scenario. Over time, the stories that I sought transitioned from the soft core to increasingly extreme hardcore (because lust is NEVER satisfied). I was free to do whatever I wanted to whoever I wanted within the fantasy world inside my mind.
This became the point when I started viewing myself as a monster. I couldn’t believe the things that I needed to arouse myself and started to become terrified of what the next step might be. The fantasy world was becoming indistinguishable from reality.............
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