Security in Insecurity

Do you ever wake up and feel just...insecure in life? What am I going to do about this? Where is my life going? God, will I be blessed in this way? God, what's going on with this? God, I don't know about this?
I was like this today. I went further into my day like this. You can fill in the blank with whatever it is bothers you. But for me, man I just felt like all I desired, maybe JUST maybe, might not happen. I read up on God's promises for me and I see Him pull through, but I don't know what it was, I could not shake this feeling today.
So as I got into my car and started on my way to my worship practice, I started to ask God these questions. He was silent for awhile letting me ask. And I started to hear myself, first thing I thought, "What a bunch of selfishness being asked." All these me and my desires. Don't I believe that Lord will take care of me. Why worry? Why ask selfishly? I agreed with myself and said that is truth! Still couldn't shake it!
So I read and I put up these verses. I won't lie my feelings were still telling me to worry. But as I read more and more I had to KNOW that God's promises are true and just, that there is no reason for me to worry. For I am held by the King of Kings. I am aligned with the will of the Lord. I have nothing to fear no matter how things may seem and disillusion me. I am still in the wilderness being tested and grown for the Lord. It is enough for me to KNOW that God is with me and He is working in my heart and He will bless me. That no matter how insecure I might feel, I KNOW that I am safe. In obedience and reverance to my Lord I will be ok and He will bring me into His land flowing with His blessings and promises. But I can't miss these steps that it takes to get there. I need to remember God's path is set for me and He doesn't want me to make short cuts. For if I take a short cut I miss out on what the Lord will be trying to teach me. I can't get into His promise land short of anything. I am blessed to be where I am and I AM safe and secure. For I am anchored by the anchor that cannot be moved.
Heavenly Father,
Lord I am sorry that I had forgotten who you are again Lord! God I love how you know where I am each day and you realign me with you each day. Thank you Father. Jesus I am on your path and I am being molded into the man you have designed me to be. God thank you for reminding me again and again, because you know how my mind just goes bleh! But God you never leave me and you'll remind as many times as it takes. God thank you for making me KNOW that I am blessed by you. That in you I am safe and secure. God you are absolutely awesome and I love you so much. Thank you for bringing me to lean on you again today Lord that, that would make me fall more in love with you. God teach me the lessons you want me to learn and the things you want me to know, so that I will become that which you have created and nothing less. I love you Jesus! In Jesus' name I pray!
AMEN

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